OK, so my husband travels a lot for his job. Frankly, like anything else, you get used to whatever you have, so I'm used to the fact that he's mostly gone ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
Zoe and I get into a rhythm in his absence. I juggle some things. I have good people who surround me and help me out in a pinch. Chuck and I talk every night on the phone and about 80 times a day. We've added IM'ing into the mix. We manage.
But the thing is, I have a sort of internal alarm for when he's supposed to return. And when it goes off I'm done. He needs to be home. Yes, I miss him when he's gone but don't make a big drama out of it. What would be the point? But when it's time, enough is enough, and he needs to be home.
Well, my internal alarm went off today and my husband will not be here to turn it off. He's stuck in Dallas. I am 2500 miles away from Dallas and my husband. And I'm really sad and lonely and miss him.
I guess I'll have to hit the snooze button until tomorrrow.
Posted by beth at August 1, 2003 11:18 PM