So yeah I'm looking for a job. We all know that. Alexa is sure they'll all start calling right after the first of the year. I'm holding her to that, in case you're wondering.
So going to the office every day is a mixed bag for me. The animosity between me and my boss is palpable, but you'd be so proud of me as I have been gracious and professional, and anxiously await the day I can give my notice.
As part of parcel of the whole let's fuck with Beth M.O. that my boss has adopted, he's asked me to move my office so that the person who got the other promotion that was offered at the same time the one I didn't get was offered, can move into my office. He wants this person right next to him so he can be "coached".
Frankly, though I love my current office, I'm happy to move. I designed the space so I know that every office is beautiful (not to mention virtually identical), so I don't mind going to another one. And I'd be just as happy to move to far away from him, even to another floor, but I can't be that lucky.
So I'm going to move my office on Monday. Instead of a view of the Hollywood sign, I will now have a view of the new Walt Disney Concert Hall that was designed by Frank Gehry. IMHO, I think I'm trading up because: a) my office is no longer next to asshole boss, and b) I was getting tired of my old view.
Anyway, despite Alexa's assurances, and the assurances of those around me that are helping me, I still worry. When you've been at a job for 14 years, as I have with this one, you worry about your employablity elsewhere. Will my skills translate elsewhere? Will anyone else want me? It boils down to self-esteem issues.
Well, shortly after the "I'd like you to move on Monday" discussion, I checked my work horoscope for the day:
Buddha may not have had the modern workplace in mind when he suggested giving up our attachments, but right now that's the best advice for your current situation. You'll free yourself for new opportunities coming soon.
Posted by beth at December 23, 2004 09:44 PMI admire how you're handling all this. Reading these entries has given me a new perspective on my own crappy management. When you're in your new job and looking back on the old one with disdain and hindsight, you'll know what you suspect now (that you're worth more). Also Karma is on your side.
Posted by: Lesley at December 27, 2004 12:40 AMGood luck with it! I hope you find your passion...I gave up a fairly cushy office job with good pay and great benefits because I hated the politics...now slugging it out in a factory with no benefits and crappy pay. Will it get better? Who knows? You say I'm stubborn and taking a risk? You bet. Why do something that makes you miserable and stressed? Great site - you have a very entertaining writing style!
Posted by: Insta Marv at December 28, 2004 01:14 PMYou'll have little-to-no problem getting a new job. Of that I am certain. And you will be well rid of those asshats.
Posted by: Carol at December 29, 2004 08:40 PMWhen I started reading this post, I thought they were going to ask you to move down to the storage room. And then take away your red stapler. :) I'm glad your move is resulting in a better view instead!
Posted by: Nanette at December 30, 2004 12:35 PMNo! Not my stapler!
Posted by: beth at December 30, 2004 06:36 PM